Wednesday, April 01, 2009
these days, i feel like im just floating around!!!!
seriously. time just fly past and at the end of the day i find that i havent really accomplished anything. gah.
right now im busying myself with nothing.. haha.. but im finally sensing the urgency to get a job due to my depleting funds. ARGH. how i wish i can have unlimited supply of money so i can spend all day doing the things i really want instead of having to spend time working. complaints from a lazy bum. HAH.
birthday was greaaaat!!! different this year, but still greaaaaaaaaat!!!! although i got upset about certain things but i guess all in all it really was a good birthday. made me realise many things. finally hit the big two.. IM TWENTY!!!!!! argh. i spent two decades on gawd-knows-what hopefully i'll learn to spend my time more wisely the next few decades to come. and right now, i feel kind of contented with life. i used to keep myself busy from morning till night, wanting no intermission in between. i used to find it loser-ish to stay at home on a friday night instead of hanging out till the early morn. hahaaaa. but upon looking back i find that i really dont know what ive gained by hanging out with people whom i barely knew/who barely knew me. sure, ive made some superficial friends.. but at the end of the day i find that those who really stick around are often those whom ive taken for granted. and this year i realise how dumb i was for failing to treasure many of the friendships i've forged through the course of the last two decades cos i was too busy wasting my life away.
thank you x99999999 to:
SAMANTHA, MICHELLE, WYNNE for surprise and squeaky and charlespanzee and newyorknewyork and one night of fun+laughter and sweet messages in your blog posts (yes i read them!). SAMANTHA thanks for your wonderfully baked cake with the wonderful birthAY wish. 10 eggs is alot and im sort of finishing the cake by myself. although its attempt 283238 to make me fat and probably die of high cholesterol in the process but i see and taste your sincerity :P really thanks sam for taking time out of your busy schedule what with work and black sat.. to bake a special cake just for me! yay! and wynne, mich i know yall are busy with work and rich metro men too... thanks for taking the time off!!!!! many loves to you girls.. never fail to make me feel so loved and not-so-totally-redundant-afterall on my birthday. still remember the scrapbook yall did last yr. you guy have helped me gotten through the rough patches in life and provided a listening ear every time. thanks a whole bunch i really hope tt all the birthday wishes ive made will come true. :) see the three of you at NUS k!!
PEIYEN for squeaky tooo! and for the warning i so much needed :P fellow gamer who is 232 times more hardcore than me and there to listen to my rants at times. calls me auntie(wth). whatever it is.. THANKS! :D
KAREN, KIANYONG for the 'birthday outing' hahahahahaha which i forced on yall right? *winks* anyway yall dont have to look so tormented when yall go out with me luh cos i know tt yall are actually enjoying yourselves superly alot just tt yall refuse to show it. haha. anyway the two of you are perhaps one of the few people whom i can go 'so are you gonna celebrate my birthday?' to and not feel ashamed cos i know tt yall care!!! kianyong i dont know la... but karen... my old flame.... you care!!!! yes, you. cmon dont be shy already. hahaahha! anyway karen i know tt i'm forever dissing you but this time im gng to say someth nice: karen khor thanks for being one person who truly cares. you really have an unlimited amount of care and concern towards your friends and i guess i should let you know that you are very very much appreciated!!! i know that i can always count on you to be there for me on a sad lonely night even though we may not have contacted each other for the last three months. and you make me crazy -- not over you, but with you. damn u should stop doing that.. cos a twenty year old like me should behave like one. HAHA. hope tt we'll have a looooong lasting friendship. dont worry i'll save u from your ahem predicament. rab's ur perfect matchmaker!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D
XIANGLONG although your calendar spoil (ahem ahem) but you've totally atoned your sins haha! thanks for the birthday treat!!!! weird friend i knew from i have no idea when and where.. to sum it all up it's a totally weird friendship with you popping up at weird times. haha!! thanks alot okaaaaay! you were here last year and still here this year. amazing! dont worry with my notebook around i'll remember ur birthday this year too :)
SHIHUI i bet PUIYEE too (cos the both of u are always organising stuff!! :P) and LOVABLE SQUIDS thanks for wanting to celebrate my birthday with me even after my 2492932 AWOLs. haha! you know i was so touched when shihui asked!!!! sorry i couldnt make it but really the thought of yall even thinking of celebrating it for me makes me happy enough. :) and SHIHUI thanks for your blog post i really find it meaningful. hope tt i can be a 'friend' to yall too.. although ive been missing out on so much but let's hope tt it's not too late to catch up! :D
SHIYUN for her imaginary fireworks!! such friends are really hard to come by... friends with such ultra active imagination.. HAHAHA okay la just kidding!! i mean such friends who appear like some wild girl but is secretly conservative and loyal towards her friends! thanks for remembering my birthday!! you are one funny person like seriously seriously hilarious and zi high i have no idea what to do with you at times hahaha but you know im really glad that we're still in contact!! until now im still very amazed by the way our friendship turned out from that sadshyt orientation HAHAHAHA! thanks for being there for me to pour my heart out to during the late night phone calls *wink*wink* sounds kinky but seriously i think we shared a whole lot of memories in these short 2 plus years despite never being classmates before and having all the different timetable!! esp tt very memorable job communicating with your fav group of people HAHA. i damn damn damn long never seee you although i keep hearing your voice but pls know tt its not enough!!! ohyahor i think i'm gonna see you later and i hope the present you promised is not another bout of imaginary fireworks, or a wrapped up shiyun for that matter. please continue to suffocate me with your lameness i think there's plenty of chances since ive taken up the same part time job as u. GG to me hahaa ok la just kidding!
CHERYL for wanting to meet up with me haha best friends for centuries ive lost count now tt im two decades old but i know ive known you more than half my life! wowweees! from cozynights to brownies to weirddespophonecallsbeforebrownies to yoyo to campingatmyhouse to visitingyourmumsshop to arcade to numerousphonecalls. really come to think of it we've shared countless countless memories together and you are a proud participant of many of Rab's Life Events!!! congrats!!! hahaha! i dont think ive kept any secrets from you. although im aware tt we're two very different entities LOL but to me you'll always be someone whom i can trust my deepest darkest secrets with and not feel like im being judged. thanks for being there when im all lost about things. you know, at times i get worried about you but i trust tt you are still that same sensible cheryl i knew since P3 who is always able to offer me sound advices! i hope tt you can stop lalaala-ing(ask me if you dont know what im referring to). dont worry i still love you :)
FAMILY no one reads my blog hahahaha but thanks for the angpaos yayyy! everyone in my family gave me angpaos this year... what the!! my brother gave me a huge one. yayy!
last but definitely not least... CHARLES. :) i think i've already told you what i wanted to tell you in person... but i ought to put someth here cos u celebrated such a huge huge HUGE part of my birthday for me and i know u'll read my blog. haha! thanks so much for putting so much of your very limited time and effort into making my birthday celebration such a special one for me. :) i know tt it's difficult to get anyth planned in ns so you had to ask around like crazee and dig out information from your ns friends. thanks for sacrificing everything else for me. i know im all the way up there on your priorities list and im really grateful for it, and so so thankful that i've found you! :D i know tt you planned hard for saturday though we couldnt carry out the plans due to last minute changes but im aware of all the effort uve put in! sorry i got a bit sulky on sat night after meeting you. i know how tired you were after such a long long day rushing all over the place just for my sake and even pressed on to meet me with what energy you've got left. thanks for being so patient with me. thanks for wanting to bake a cake for me and the 'best cake in the charles' world' that you fought to reserve for me in the end :P i know that you are always giving me the best!! yay. i really had a fab fab time with you counting down to my birthday i'll always remember it and also the dimsum buffet treat plus kbox the next day!! i know the only reason why you'll even step into kbox is cos i said that i wanted to try singing with you. hahaha! now that's one big sacrifice! =P but we had great fun too right?? i thought that 2 people singing would be awkward but aft this experience it really confirmed the fact tt i can never feel awkward around you!!! dear charles, please stop thinking that you are not doing enough for me cos to me you've done alot more than you ought to. love the present alot you sly guy i cant believe u bought it when i was there without me noticing. looking forward to rabs birthday celebration part III this sat! love you a whole lot! :)
and thanks for those who wished me on msn, sms or facebook!!! i think that every birthday wish seriously went a long way in making me feel loved! whether you wished me at 12 midnight exact(moksa, puiyee, shiyun, sam, shihui) or the last(justinechuimtalkingabtyouandyourstupidtradition) or even belated, thank you so much! :D
