``blithe indifference
Thursday, October 19, 2006
「 auditited on 8:33:00 PM 」


i think. i can go write a book entitled 'The Worst Days of my Life'. this must be the worst my life can ever get. i hope so. haha okie im not gna make this another emo entry cos... believe it or not, im actually feeling quite happy now! (:

YESTERDAY ---
hmm skipped sch yest cos rab's a loser. n she's too afraid to get her own results back. so well called siwei n she told me all my marks, all which came as no surprise. lol. ok somehow i managed to stay happy idunnohowididit. on my way to parkway mich called n guess what! the bus she was on just drove past me. -_-. the 101 coincidences in life! haha! so rabby met michy and ate icecreamy cos the clinic was closed for lunch. dumb! 45 min later they returned to the clinic n michy waited with rabby! nice michy! (very rare. oops.) then lyk another 1 or 2 hours passed n mich left rabby n rabby wenta swim! all.by.herself! okie then met up with ;coded aft wad seems lyk a gazillion years. myguess is... siwei organised it -_-. hello i really wasn't suicidal! i went swimming, not drowning. anw did i mention? I LOVE ;CODED LA. thanks peiling for ponnin climbing, viv for ponnin swimming, eun for rushin down despite her bz schedule. dinner n cake yum! n somehow when i got home i felt damn damn damn damn sad. moodswings, bah. people online cheered me up. yall know who u are ! :D

and hi mich. u dunno how touched i was! like very very very. i found it really unbelievable at first but u really looked sad so i believe u (:

TODAY----
sch was horrible. skipped phy n chem. i just wanted to sleep sleep sleep! pat n mich joined me durin chem haa. had a nice long talk with jiahui. everything is fine, girl! lol i can say tt to other pple. just not to myself. grrrrr. n then i was being a grumpy old frump during gp n phy too. fuzzy wuzzy talked t me aft phy. i was a complete loser i just couldn't stop the tears. i like fuzzy wuzzy. n aft tt every single thing which anyone did to me just made me cry more. thanks ym, pat, mich, sw for being so understanding, yep! stoned for a very very long time. karen gave me virtual hugs (: and ice cream offers! n she prayed for me at the temple. kaaaaaaareeeeeeen ilu! we might just get reconciled! HAHAA =X ok ure the best! then wenta eat, n pw-ed. then.... siwei n pat appeared out of a sudden at the hub... with...... BEN&JERRYS COOKIE DOUGH! ooomyyyfavvvv.! don't i just sound like a glutton. anw i was really really surprised ok n things just started gettin better aft tt. sw rushed off for swimming. at the hub sumth very very hilarious happened! heh! thennn i really dno wad happened some things abt pw. the thing is i had to stay back in the end cos i lost the OHYAPEHYASOM however u spell. -_- HAHA. pat accompanied us for damn long time but had to go. yimin stayed!! yay. n a new addition to tj043... mich! in the end did this this and tt till 7+ gosh. n i like the haze. everyone will come slap me. mich n i had t run to the squash court to get the thumbdrive frm dumbjoel n the haze totally made it feel lyk a fairytale setting! toobad it was mich with me hahaha, keeeeding. :P and moksa gave me manymany hugs. it felt good.

thank goodness for friends. cos these pple mentioned above transformed me from an extremely depressed rab to a happy rab! THANKS. A WHOLE LOT. i love each n everyone of u! i so mean it. and. just in case anyone is wondering. IM NOT A LESBIAN haha. dun worry.

ooo n my left eye hurts. i think something is gng to grow outta it soon. OOOHHH GOSH. bad things just keep happening to me ):