``blithe indifference
Friday, October 06, 2006
「 auditited on 12:14:00 AM 」


hi alright i realise im lacking some sensible entries. as in entries which i really put some thought into writing cos most of the time im really just practising wad polar-ling thought me back in mj. free-writing! something about writing the first thing which comes into ur mind. lol alright my blog is lacking substance. but then again.. that's what blogs are for, no? haha !

hmmm there are like a thousand n one things on my mind right now. notice im not sounding too happy. haha. top on the list: getting retained. i simply can't fathom how there can be people out there who are able t cope with everything, and anything. to me, thats just plain crazy eh! sooo outtaaaaaaa reachhhhhhh. ): ahaa shant go into details about the shytty predicament which im in right now. im seriously in deep, DEEP shyt. n it's friggin depressing. anw i noe i was a bad girl after the maths paper today. sorrie kids! namely: seewei, mich, pattiepoo, yimin (:

everything aside. i just wanna make a statement here: we are living in a superficial world. such a damn damn superficial one. everything starts from the appearance. and, quite unfortunately, stops there as well. who in the world will actually even bother getting acquainted with a person with one good eye, two fingers missing, three tooths remaining, obese, balding, to put it simply: ugly beyond words. ultimately, it'll all be about first impressions. bah. im not actually pointing my finger at anyone right now. myself? im guilty of this too. judging people by their looks. and. liking people for their looks. heh there, ive said it. rab is a superficial biatch so get away from her. the thing is. superficiality is really human nature. i mean everyone just can't resist pretty things, right? it's something tts innate, hidden somewhere in each and everyone of us. it's the degree of superficiality which varies. some people just let it get over their heads. so much so tt it's frightening. but then again, it doesn't hurt to look good, eh? HAHA. anw. u might think this is totally irrelevant(hahamich). but nooooooooooo this is my second concern! i guess im just being superficial. and im trying real damn hard to curb this shyt. first things first: stop all forms of contact. cheerios to me.

andddddd. promos is still damn real. it's lyk a big monster looming infrnt of me. tues tues tues. the day of freedom. the end of misery. delayed gratification, eh siwei? LOL. ive reached a hugeeeeee obstacle in life. right now, all i really really REALLY want is just t get promoted. heres a promise: if i do manage to get promoted, 1-2weeks of my dec hols will be solely set aside for studying. this promise, i'll be sure t keep!

and. although i did manage to stop myself frm breakin down durin the promos. THANKS LOTS for the goodlucks, concern, constant encouragement. yall keep me going. thanks ryl u were always there. n still is. moksa.. for nt one, nt two, but 209139012 of ur encouraging smses. they really went a long way. loves.

I LOVE YOU. I WANT TO KNOW YOU INSIDE OUT, OUTSIDE IN, RIGHT SIDE, LEFT SIDE, UPSIDE DOWN. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GIV ME THE CHANCE TO. I WILL GIVE YOU MY ALL. I WANNA HAVE CHEMISTRY WITH YOU, CHEMISTRY.
Yours Truly, Mugger Rab.