``blithe indifference
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
「 auditited on 7:46:00 PM 」


hello wow i dno what's wrong with me. im like shutting myself at home! and isolating myself again! gosh gosh gosh. and the thing is... i don't even feel like doing anything. even at home. i don't even play the comp anymore. i just keep falling asleep. bahhhhhh im really not normal lol. the thing is. i don't feel depressed or anything like that. i just feel like being a hermit. ):

im starting work at settler's again aft stopping for more than a month. worked on sunday, and monday too. i think tts why i feel so deprived. cos even if there are people around, i just stay around in the same place. woops. but no doubt, my job is fun! i think my games hosting skill has improved from last time. a table(with guys n gurls) kept asking for me haha! even though im not like good, good... at least i feel more at ease n don't bore people out anymore. heh. n mon after work was fun fun fun! we stayed till like 3+ nearing 4am haha doing something.. quite bad. oops. i laughed so much la the company was so good. gin(she's new n i like her!), kenny, timo, terence. mohan left early. before mohan left we played 3 games. i won 2 n drew 1 with kenny! n it was damn hilarious cos after every game everyone would just stand up n mess up the game on e table sayin things like 'idon'twantoplayalready' n 'cheat,cheat!' finally got to do it the last time cos accordin to mohan kenny won the last round. yay!

siwei went for games training. i guess she's gna officially start work soon. another yay. I LOVE THE SETTLER'S FAMILY. everyone is so bonded despite the different background. n i think they are genuinely nice!

bahhh i think i know what's my problem now. i just hope tt everything will just blow over soon. like, everything. i guess soon enough, things will start falling into place :D for now just let me be in loner cos im not in the mood to do many things... boooooooo.