``blithe indifference
Friday, April 08, 2005
「 auditited on 11:12:00 PM 」


lost time can nvr be found again. so true.

was flipping thru my childhood photos and realised how much i've changed, whether in terms of physical appearance or character. i actually mourned over all the wasted years. deep inside i know tt i could've made better use of my time and i've wasted a large n precious portion of my life away but i've grown so used to this bo chap n heck care lifestyle tt i couldn't even be bothered to change myself. haha. take note: i used the word 'couldn't'-- past tense.

had activity just now n went macs for dinner. eepin happened to be sitting beside me. to my greatest amazement, he finished his food very quickly n started bringing out his maths hmwrk to do. like it's damn shocking!??!?! of cos i felt tt he was dam anti-climax la. there we were enjoyin our dinner n he had to start doing his wrk. lol so lousy me started distracting him n tried to get him to stop la. but nO! he din get distracted at all! he had his full attention on the piece of work right infrnt of him. then he met wif sum difficulties solvin the sums. did he giv up? no again! he just kept doing n doing n doing. i knew perfectly well tt if i were him i would've gladly skipped the question. even better--stop doing my wrk n start crappin. ok in the end he got his ans. even though he only managed to complete one or two sums in tt long period of time but so what? at leaz it's sumting. do a lil bit here, a lil bit there, n *pooF* ur hmwrk will be completed. n u'll benefit much frm it!

actually i din giv this matter much thought but aft i got hm eun called specially to tell me a beeg news. n tt is eepin finished studyin the whole syllabus for chem! wah. eepin. my sec 1 n 2 classmate. the one i used to consider a slacker like me. the one who got even lousier results than the lousy me. could still remember his rankin for one yr: 31st? somewhere around there..while i was 20+(not tt far off frm him but hah. still better :P). look at wad's happenin a yr lateR? eepin. the guy wif superb self-discipline. compare our results now. ha ha.

yesh the ting i'm lackin in ultimately is self-discipline. i succumb to temptations ezly. i dun do the right tings at the right time. i dun set my priorities right. i've got super ultra short attention span. the piece of work can be laid out right infrnt of me but aft awhile my mind juz keeps wanderin. nt onli ep, many many other pple haf already started studyin.

hahaha rab's gonna change. i seriously truly dun wanna regret my o lvls. nvrrrrrrrrr! hahahaha. mug til my dyin day!

;coded293=> ;mugger293.


cast everything aside. every other probs i haf now is nothing compared to the beEg Os. stay focused!

hahaha wad a lame entry. but haha i enjoy talkin to myself. so there.