``blithe indifference
Sunday, April 03, 2005
「 auditited on 12:08:00 AM 」


DAY ONE WITHOUT HANDPHONE:

life is horrible. i feel isolated from everyone else! i was suddenly unsure of sumth this afternoon. in the past i would have happily whipped out my phone to sms one of my trusty friends but all is lost now. i can no longer do tt. can u imagine the misery? the feeling of losing a part of u? the feeling of guilt? no u can't. so i shall go hang myself now.

lol. lac rab is not going mad. above is just a short para of crap i've written. the boredom is killin me. seriously. life without hp is really crap larh boooooo. but hahaa mayb it's cos im not used to it yet. ahhh. okies. 4th time losing hp. the process is shyt. can u imagine? i've got to get a new sim card wif ALL my contacts gone. yes, close ur mouth...ALL. wtf. it's damn troublesome la! then whenever one of those rare pple i seldom sms send a greetin on sum special occasion i wun haf their contact n i'll hafta reply "orh thanks..hu is this arh?" -_-. if i'm the person i wun be bothered to sms me agn in future lorh. they sure tink tt i've deleted them. like which idiot lose one fone every half a yr la u tell me? only one beeg fat idiot. rabecca lai. IDIOT.

okies mayb i'm tinkin too much. why tink abt replacin my sim card now rite? afterall im nt gng to get a new fone. daydreamin is bad. aiyarh wtf my parents oreadi made it clear tt they wun buy me a new fone if i lose my fone agn. poof! look wad i've done. my handphone had gone missin overnight! n the worst ting is...i duno even noe how i f-ing lost it! wah lao...i remember the last fone call i made.....to fanfan to ask him bring shirts...then i put it into my bag? or tts what i tink la. mayb i threw it into the bushes or i just left it on the platform n it got eaten by a dog. lol reminds me of tt commercial =x anwww. yesh so i'm hp-less now. hp-less tmr. hp-less nxt month. hp-less aft nxt yr. hp-less aft 10 yrs. n who have i got to blame but myself? beeg fat idiot rab. it actually sounds right.

really damn sad larh but i dun deny tt it's my fault. forever being careless. forever losing my things. forever trying to find missing stuff. tts my life. searchin n searchin n searchin everyday. shuld be punished for my own mistake la... shall bear the responsibility for once. it's unfair if i get my parents to buy me a new one anw. okiess frm now on shall save up n buy a fone for myself! -_-.

hahaha i think im quite affected by the loss of my hp. quite lame but true. i've grown too dependent on it! :O this morn i got woken up by a fone call. aft i put dwn the fone i started groping around my bed for my fone wif my eyes still closed. then it suddenly dawned on my tt i've lost my fone the previous night. -_-. stupidity. then i got so affected that i couldn't get back to sleep. so i decided to get out of bed. n i couldn't stop whining about my lost phone. hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. poor sis.

anw thx to all who helped to search for my fone. sry yuting n pat n esp xianglong for callin u all so late at night lol.